dreams ix

Sunday, February 28th, 2010

Dreams on my right
dreams on my left
doors all around
behind each and every
a cataclysm awaits
yet through only one
total catastrophe
and a worthy chance
at redemption.

– matt at shadow of iris

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speak in dreams

Friday, January 29th, 2010

Speak in dreams
every word a picture
iconography
a visual collage
that tells you a secret
you can never quite
hear.

– matt at shadow of iris

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a dream with aliens

Friday, November 20th, 2009

I’m in high school again.
I don’t know how I got here
nor do I want to be here.

There are aliens all around
hidden from humans under masks
and I’m never quite sure
but think I might be one.

I move about the hallways
moving around the students
always wary I’ll be made out.

I stumble across a large room
walls that stretch up high
a wide open chamber
a trial is taking place
the purported crime —
this student is an alien.

Among the jurors
I recognize more than one alien
their masks translucent
these are b-grade movie aliens
large malformed heads and insect eyes
they bang their fists
ready to judge the accused
who
frankly speaking
looks
all too human.

There is an explosion
a slow lugubrious one
no one is even hurt
in slow motion people begin to panic
and to search for the nearest exits
everyone moving to leave
I as well
but first I want to go by school administration
where I find an empty office
and two large chocolate frogs on a person’s desk
one frog lops up the other
and smiles
feeling certain it hasn’t been seen
but it has.

I make my way outside
and find myself sharing a large train platform
full of students
only there is a problem
where the train tracks should be relative to the platform
there is only a small field of tall grass
there is no train coming
but everyone waits.

A sign on a column
in green, red, and yellow
is explicitly a notice for the reggae club
but actually
it is a secret code
telling me where I’ll find Telemachus
as he has infiltrated the school.

I ask one of the more intelligent students
school’s over, isn’t it?
he replies
yeah, I guess.

I step off the platform
into the tall grass
and make my way for the parking lot
then in the distance near the main road
I see two angels
standing by a slick red car
a well dressed man and a woman
sleek and beautiful people
they wave to me
and offer me a ride
I wave back
but decline
I’ve my own car
it’s then that I realize
I’ve forgotten where I parked it.

– matt at shadow of iris

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dreams xii

Thursday, November 19th, 2009

A mouse moving under the carpet
a small lump, cartoonish
a white mouse in a cage
always safe, well fed
but always restless
it sticks its nose between the bars
and rubs
till its nose is sore and red, even scarred
it gnaws on the bars of the cage
a grating sound
that won’t let you rest
until finally
not being able to bear it anymore
you take it out to the woods
and let it go …

Second thoughts overwhelm you
guilt
a white mouse against red leaves
a sore thumb
snake fodder
you reach out to grab it
because even if
you can’t let it live
you can’t let it die
but even as you move to snatch it up
it’s faster than your hands
and quickly gone
the deed done.

You’ve stepped out of time
into a small dark chamber
stony walls and dark shades
of fluorescent violet and green
time flows onwards
but only outside the cave
never within
you can watch friends, family, life
moving forward
leaving you behind
all through a misty door –
do you step through
back into time?
Or do you stay there forever
and watch?

Far, far away
in a passage through a cave
or on a trail through a dark section of woods
you spy an eerie wavering light
you halt
you are not alone
behind you stands an old guardian
a harsh face and an old stony voice
he promises you safety, honor
but only if you slay
the shadowy figure out in front
yet the shadow’s voice is soothing
and it beckons you forward
towards the shimmering light
with promises of flesh and power.

You are in a restaurant
clean, cool, and spiffy
you’ve order coffee
you sit with one friend
and another has gone to use the rest room
the drinks arrive
hot steaming drinks, one milky green tea
reaching for yours
you clumsily spill sugar on the table
you scoop some up
and place it in your absent friend’s cup
thinking it’ll flavor his tea
but your friend who is present asks
“why are you putting poison in his cup?”

– matt at shadow of iris

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dreams xi

Wednesday, November 11th, 2009

These dreams are flighty things.

I awake
and wonder if I’ve had them
a puzzle
a box without a key
a single thought leads to a chain
then there is a string of memories.

I’m in a big white house
a familiar house
my house
yet I never lived there
a beautiful house up on a grassy hill
I’m just a boy
and I’m straying around places I shouldn’t be
I’m in my brother’s room
his private place above the garage
forbidden territory
but he’s been gone for days now
I’m looking for clues to some kind of mystery.

The dog in the room is glad to see me
and scampers about excitedly
the bathroom door
it drives him mad
so I open it.

The kittens flood out
fleeing like wild mice from a field on fire
so many of them
a flood of kittens
three stalwart mothers among them.

What’s my brother doing with so many cats?
Did he hide them here? Did he forget about them?
Is one mother perchance a father?
What have they been eating?
And what am I to do now that I’ve opened the genie’s bottle?

I scoop up the dog
less he gobble up a kitten or two
and hold him tight as he wriggles to be free, howling
I watch my feet less I should step on a little kitten
as they rub up against me, purring,
wanting me to pick them up.

Shifting, shifting, shifting
fast forward
fast reverse
I’m not really sure

I meet an old friend in a bread shop
oh what a bread shop
sweet pastries freshly baked
can you smell in dreams?
I’m sure I can.

Everything so clean, so neat
all the pastries with soft powder sugar sprinkled on them
my friend is talking about the Internet
he’s telling me there are places
places I haven’t been to
places I should go
I’m in rapt interest
I realize I’m in a hospital
a lonely one during the holidays …

I dreamed all night, I’m sure of it
my consciousness flittering in and out of images
a tiny fish among the wavering coral
always at play in the currents
yet this is all I’ve to show for it
how it greaves me not to know
where else I must have traveled.

– matt at shadow of iris

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a sulky look

Sunday, November 1st, 2009

An inhibited idea
held back by nature
and by degree
pushes forth at night
as pinkish slices of grapefruit
and probing kisses.

The absurdity of my dreams
is as complete as
the potency of thier feeling tone
sliding lips across my cheek
but whose?

The vacuum of associations
during the day
is a deliberate refusal to leave
until at night
when my eyes have shut
the surge of passion
and unanswered sexual urgency
yield the suggested effect
the capacious behavior of images
coming out to play
as the rain begins to slacken.

The notorious strangeness of dreams
my feelings for you
emotional stupidity
or
a form of inspiration
cradle me in your arms
sing to me
whisper.

Uncontrollable elements
yield extraneous events
leading to an autonomous complex
from perfect clarity
to deepest confusion
clamoring life is all around
I’m drowning in your arms
the look in your face
as you look down
a sulky look.

– Marya Ophir

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word collage — urban spirit

Saturday, October 17th, 2009

Now and again
the same dreams
haunting me.

A drenching warm heat
the hum of the human swarm
a cluster of progeny
complex and monstrous.

Digging nails into flesh
bare heels in the sunshine
outcries of amazement
the brink of a cool spring.

The tickle of the tongue
long deep sighing
sliding neatly into place
lured beyond the gate.

Whimpering sounds of protest
the strong full pulse
embryonic development
the song of the cicada.

The hazy languor of your eyes
waggery
a fused cell
ignorance of myself.

Nuzzle my cheek
slumber peacefully
grammar, syntax, arithmetic
the manner of our death.

Backwards and forwards
indolent dogmatism
an act of conception
the flower of polite learning.

Tantalizing brush of lips
remnants of a beaten army
a trillion cell massive apparatus
spooks and demons.

Moving sensuously over flesh
sylvan arches draped in long moss
the ghost of an idea
the height of urban spirit.

– suraab

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words in search of a poem — smitten

Tuesday, September 29th, 2009

Dreams fade
and dreams return
early morning dreams.

Soft pillow
beneath your head
you sinking into it
an arm around your shoulder.

Vague hesitation
a secret world at your doorstep
a single thought away.

Emotional inhibition
ideological obstruction
lay me gently on the bed
whisper intimate secrets
velvet covered steel
malleable.

The knees shake
the heart pounds
the face flushes
somatic innervations
countless body sensations
falling into time — again
a streak of perspiration
a wry twist
a catching smile
village bells chiming
somewhere far off.

Each lock of hair
a yellow bouncing curl
that tortures me exquisitely.

Psychic manifestations
synchronous chains of associations
alterations of the will
a strange power
nervous energy mounting up
hands moving over the warmness
searching.

Painful reminiscences
hallucinatory delirium
autochthonous ideas
sudden impulses
hands dipping into solid softness.

Mouth parted
ordinary words
that never emerge
instead
stimulus words that hit a complex
a striking effect
smitten
sinking into amnesia
little gasps of pleasure along the way.

– suraab

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poem: dreamless

Tuesday, March 10th, 2009

Less his dreams should escape him
less his hopes should desert him
he shuffled them all together
and neatly put them in a box
he sealed the top carefully
and wrapped it all up nicely
he hid his boxed dreams with great secretiveness
in a place where no one would ever find them
but where that place was
still as of yet
he has not remembered.

– matt at shadow of iris

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poem: where dreams have gone

Monday, March 9th, 2009

Words fell from his lips
imaginary things
but to him
real
small seeds
desperate for soil
and water
desperate for life
he watched them grow
he saw
the pains of their birth
the glory of their blossoming
the awe of their final maturing
and
the void left at their passing
searching for the place
where dreams have gone.

– matt at shadow of iris

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